MAMEWorld Forums - EmuChat - Mangled Shaders on MAME 0.185 (Linux)

> LOL! Ok, I'll give you that, that was pretty funny

Two of my friends are hanging out with me in the living room here, and we all laughed ourselves silly at that image. It's absolutely perfect, and I'm saving it.

Look, uman, you're clearly bitter that I requested those screenshots and haven't done anything with them. Yeah, I don't blame you, it probably doesn't feel great. However, in time, they will be used once I've got my life back on track and actually have enough mental bandwidth to look into MAME for more than an hour or two every few weeks. I offered to look into this issue, specifically, for this user because it was a well-written bug report, and I happened to have a few hours to myself for the first time in weeks. And unless I get this issue ironed out in the span of this particular evening - the next 3 hours or so - it's unlikely I'll have time to look into it to completion for probably about a month and a half.

For all the attitude you accuse me of showing towards you, I think you're actively going out of your way to be not just discourteous, but to find offense that is not there. You are, by your own admission, not a technical person. Personally, I would love it if you were, it would be great to have another person able to look into the graphics-related code in MAME. It's certainly not a job for just one person who has life to deal with. But it is not a personal slight for someone who is well familiar with MAME's architecture to try to steer a user, who is politely submitting a bug report, away from a post from a user actively casting aspersions on the project.

Meanwhile, EnvisagedOne, can you maybe cool your jets a little? I'm hardly one to be talking sense in a thread, on MAMEWorld of all places, but you don't need to respond to uman's aggression with further aggression. We're now something like 7 replies deep of nothing but anger and recrimination being slung back and forth like pies in an episode of The Three Stooges.

Just for fun, do you guys know what I've spent the past year and a half doing, rather than actively contributing to MAME? Rather than actively porting shaders, rather than actively working on an ARM7 DRC or any of the other "big" things I want to do? Severe depression, partly because due to job loss, every waking hour was spent worried about finding a job, worried about how I was going to make ends meet, worrying if I would be able to keep a roof over my partner's head, worrying if I would wind up having to move back to the USA, with a garbage credit score, zero savings, no car, no family except a retired, aging mother who would be unable to afford to keep a roof over my head, and plenty of friends, but none of whom would be well-off enough to be able to help me while living in a location where I might be able to find work. If I were to wind up having to move back to the USA, I would end up dying on the streets, destitute. That is not hyperbole, that is cold fact, and it's a fact I've had staring me in the face for the past year and a half. So you might understand said recurring thoughts, and might understand why honestly, in the grand scheme of things, perhaps I haven't been in the right frame of mind to port over RetroArch shaders. In fact, the only real work I've been able to do, minor things like the Hazeltine video board and that one card-reader terminal, were done on the few days that I could even focus well enough to do anything for myself. The rest of the time, I've been pretty unhappy, and just trying to survive.

It's only now, two days ago, that I finally have a job offer on the table, and feel like there might be a little glimmer of hope for me left yet. However, yesterday all of that stress came back into my life, because the immigration board has finally called me back and are starting to process my residence application, and they want to talk to him and I two weeks from now. This is pretty much the deciding factor in where my life goes. Sure, there's an appeals process if they get denied, and I keep trying to focus on the hard facts, since I know there are a number of factors working in my favor here. But even with all that, nothing is ever a sure thing, and I keep feeling an immense tightness in my chest whenever I think about it. And probably will for the next two weeks, until the meeting.

Why am I saying all this now? Why am I all unloading this now? Because every one of you probably has some pretty negative things going on in your lives right now, too. If you don't, great! Please spare some human empathy for those of us who do. I'll be the first to admit that I've hardly been a paragon of diplomacy for the team over the past 15 years, or on emulation forums even before that, but I'm actively trying to get better. And maybe, just maybe, if we can step back and try to be a little nicer to each other, and ease back a bit on assuming ill intent, then perhaps some user, one who's story we don't know, might experience just a little more kindness in his or her life, which could push them away from doing something potentially stupid.

Food for thought.